but then. who cares. its just a place where i can stave my insanity for a few couple mins.
lately. i have been reminiscing. dont know if its a good thing or not. heck. got me all emo and stuffs when i think about the past, wish that some things can stay as it is. and never change. ever got those kind of thoughts?
moving on to another topic, i realized i get emo fast. emotional or the emo emo where i go all bishy and snap at ppl or just being plain party pooper. lets take an example when yesterday i found out who the heroin in Vampire Knight 'chose': kaname or zero. she chose kaname. yup. you can bet your arse off that i freaked. and got pissed ._. but then, it's only the first arc - who knows in the end yuuki and zero will be together. but that's not the issue the issue ish with me. and how i feel towards it. HECK, its just a ANIME+MANGA. not a real life thing and im like so 'goo goo' and 'gaga' over it. bleh . so simply. even if it is such a small matter, be prepare for me to go all serious about it *coughs*
hmm. another thing that has been on my mind: the thing about me and having a bf.
yah. lots and lots of ppl are like wondering why i dont hav one and keep urging me to have one. but then im thinking ... why the heck would i need one ._. ? you tell me. to me, it'll just be another extra person who you'll have to worry about. hav to stay in touch with. buy things for bdays and xmas or w.e occasion. and then you'll hav to make conversation etc etc.
do i totally sound like ... a bitch? o.o or just plain damn lazy. but then. can't help it. unless a good reason pop up why i need a bf. i'll bet you on my hershey's chocolates that i aint getting one any time soon.
or maybe......... those ppls are just scared me will grow old and no one will take care of me and i'll be like this 80 yr old virgin spinster.
HAHA. in that case, no need to worry about it. dont think i'll live that long.
oh.
and no. the idea of me being a lesbian crossed my mind. but then no. I still drool after hot guys. for example like Yunho and those few asian hotties that i encounter at school. but romantic interests? nah. they are just eye candies :P good for the eyes. but not good for da licking =D