Hmm .. something has being stuck in my mind. can't stop thinking about it
am i suicidal?
this is the problem:
whenever i go up to high places, i always have the tendency of having urges wanting to jump down from that tall place. Like for example, 2 weeks ago, i was walking across a bridge. and when i was half-way through, i paused to look at the water .. and then. I was thinking what would it be like if i jump down from there. It's like this urge, the anticipation.. sudden decision that I WILL jump. But then reality hit me, i then ran all the way across the bridge. So now, whenever i see any tall places, I tend to stay away from it.
EHHH.. sounds weird right? but it's not cuz of family, personal problems that i want to die. -_-;;; it's like curiosity. What would happen if i jump? How would it feel?
Like one time, i was curious what would happen if i take a knife and cut on my skin ... so i almost did it when my brother stopped me.